Be YOU

This is a story about self-esteem and confidence stifled by family and how I’m over coming it at 27 years old. Growing up, I always had family trying to mold me into their version of perfect. I couldn’t dress how I wanted to without hearing something negative about it, I couldn’t listen to the music I loved without hearing something negative about it, and I couldn’t freely express myself without hearing something about it. Top that off with constant remarks about my weight and nose… safe to say my self-confidence was non-existent growing up.

Down December Pt. 2

Down December was probably one of the best decisions I made in 2020. Taking a full month to take a break from social media and refocus on reality really worked wonders for my mental health. I thought it was going to be much harder than it actually was, but turns out it’s much easier to be happy when you’re not bombarded everyday with the toxicity that comes with the internet.

Down December

So, I have decided to delete all of my social media apps for the month on December. I kind of just woke up and decided that I’m doing it. When I was creating my “announcement” about it on my instagram story, I sat there and stalled. I started thinking “do I really want to do this?” I knew at that moment I had to do it. The fact that I even had a lingering feeling about not being able to live without social media for 31 days told me I had an addiction that needed to be addressed. I spend countless hours scrolling on Instagram, TikTok, and Facebook looking at other people live their lives and sometimes even being guilty of comparing myself to them. I fill up all my downtime and silences scrolling mindlessly, and I forgot that I had hobbies outside of hitting the “like” button. I posted the announcement and deleted all of the apps, but now what?